Conflicting feelings

Conflicting feelings. How exactly do you feel when you get them? Well, I can't tell you exactly how you would feel or how to get rid of this feeling, but don't be afraid of it, because it can disrupt the vision of how your mind actually sees things and eventually it may lead to you doing things against your will, making you regret afterwards.

For me, I experience this feeling a lot, and it actually makes me conflict my actions and my words.

Like for example, during a week ago, a friend asked me to lend her a notes book that I spend every lesson writing in it without fail. On that moment, I was a little reluctant, but I still lent it to her anyway. And that, made the next of my entire week regretting.
Within me, 2 feelings are rather obvious and I can feel them straight away. One is that I feel happy that I was able to help her, and the other is that I felt annoyed to having to lend her the book to copy, since it was her fault not listening to the teacher and takig down notes during class.

Why make such a big fuss over something as small as this? Well, the reason is simple. It distracted me for an entire week and I didn't manage to get anything done well. I just kept questioning myself on the reason for lending her my book when all I felt later was regret.

You might try your best to get rid of conflicting feelings at times but it is not always successful. My advice to epople out there is to never ever fear this feeling, because once you fear, you give in and you lose.
So, for starters, you could try to do things that are able to distract yourself and try not to go near things that might remind you of it.
But the most important thing is, never do things that would make you regret later. Follow the voice in your head and do things according to your will. (But I'm talking about things that would not hurt other people and is legal though!) Then, I believe that things would be better and negative conflicting feelings would not come to harm you.

That's all for now!
Ciao ciao! ^w^