Confused and stressed out

Hello!
Today's day had been... Quite good I guess?

The same cycle repeated in school again.
I really tried to communicate with others when they are not near her, but whenever someone else asked me something, the next second she'd be talking to that person and once again, I have to be all alone..

It really seemed to me as if she wanted to be in the centre of all attention.
It was as if she cannot be alone for even a second.
I already gave her the space she wanted, so why is she doing this?
Is making me isolated by anyone fun or anything?

For instance, during the Teachers' Day celebration earlier, (btw it's the last day of school before my September holidays!) she sat with all my friends, causing me to not be able to talk to them because I'd make the situation awkward if I was near her. Well, that just resulted in me being all alone at the end of the row of the class line. But fortunately for me, the people around me were really nice and the performance was superb! The only thing that I felt was saddening is that I celebrated it "all alone" without my "closest friends". But still, I tried to smile just now though!

Honestly, the most annoying thing is that I can't bring myself to hate that person. I keep recalling what we went through just now. and I just don't seem to be able to get it out! Now all I want to do is to scream at the top of my voice to vent all of these frustrations out, but I can't do it. There's just nowhere I could scream at.

I'm just so lost.
I really just don't know what I should do anymore.

I was watching a television programme just now, and something a guy said really inspired me.

"I can't bear to leave you guys, but I want to focus on my dream."

I think that it's really important to focus on a goal especially when one is at a loss, because it somehow is just like a light, guiding that person through the forest he or she is lost in.
For now, I guess my goal is to try to improve myself and try to make more friends, and not constantly living in the past. I would try to focus on my goal and not get swayed easily by other stuff.

It'd be hard, but I'll still give it a shot.

Ways I came up with to relieve my stress (which I would like to share with you guys!):

1) Watch anime- It really helps! Anime is really inspirational and it can make you (at least it made mine) happier!

2) Take a book to read- When you are focused and "entering" into the world of your book, you can really forget all the troubles you have!

3) Listen to your favorite music and close your eyes while you're at it- This way, you can fully relax and once again, forget your troubles!

4) Go for a run- That way you can vent all your frustrations out and feel better afterwards!

I think that's about all the suggestions I would try out during the holidays to vent out my frustrations... I hope it works!

That's about it for today,
Ciao ciao! ;D