Hey!!! It was a really horrible day for me today tbvh... I have quarreled with my "best friend" (to me she is considered as one I guess..?) for about 2 weeks now, and she still refuses to talk to me... :( The feeling of seeing your best friend, seeing you and ignoring you yet talking happily with other people is just really horrible. I tried not to look at her face because it would only make me feel worse. I keep telling myself that yes I've tried my best to retain this friendship, by SMS-ing her, giving her an apology letter and trying to talk to her... But those are all excuses to make myself feel better right? If I really treasured this friendship, I would do everything I could to make our relationship as good as before. But I didn't... I feel like a coward somehow... ><
To be honest, I felt that life was unfair. I was wondering why I was always facing these kind of problems when others don't really seem to. But now, I really realized how lucky I am. I was just watching tv just now and I saw how people in third world countries suffer. They worked the whole day, from 4am to 9.30pm slogging their hearts out, and all they get in return is SGD$2!! I was really shocked. I just get allowances from my mother every week and spend it unwisely. But those people never complained. They all worked so hard just for one purpose- for their loved ones to be able to live in better conditions.. Isn't it so touching and noble? I don't think that I would be able to do that... I mean, I always sets goals for myself but I never fulfill it. But as of now, I guess I'll try to improve..? I might sound like a hypocrite to some people, but I'm really trying here, with all my might. I believe that if one perseveres, they would definitely get good results in return. (Right?) The results might not always be ideal, but at least u got something right? ^^ it's just like waiting for the rainbow after the rain :D it would be worth it. So, even if you face difficulties that really make you feel like dying, just try to be brave, smile and live on! It's hard I know, because I'm experiencing it now and it really really hurts, but just try! If you really cannot do it, look for a friend whom u can really trust and confide in him or her! I believe that a real friend will definitely sit by your side and help you overcome this :) and if you really have a friend like that, you must really treasure him or her!!! A real friend is really hard to come by!! :)
Okay, that's all for today!!
Ciao ciao!!
I dont think your a coward. I honestly think if your friend was having a problem with you and you had a problem with her you two should sit down and talk about it and try your best to work things out. Thats the mature way not the childish way where you just get an attitude and show of with other people or treat you wrongly for no reason. You lose some you gain some. I t just shows you have room now for a new friend, a fresh start :)
ReplyDeleteYes i tried to communicate with her, but usually she justs walks away and talk to someone else. Maybe u are right... I should really let go of this friendship... But its not easy u see, as she was the first friend i made in sec sch, and we've been through a lot together.. I would continue trying to make up with her for a while, but if it doesn't work, i would consider letting go... Like what u have said, it might really be a brand new start for me! :) Thanks for your advice btw! I really appreciate it ^_^
ReplyDeleteCiao ciao!! :D
your welcome XD
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